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2011-08-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

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2011-07-15T10:16:00.002+08:00

omg, emo shit. what if i suddenly start crying. :/

I'm so excited !!

2011-06-06T03:18:00.002+08:00

Woooots ! My cousin is coming to visit !! Hopefully ! just hopefully they can make it to KL this time. :)

SO, the thing is, my house is so far away from town, it will take them more than an hours journey to reach there. PLUS, the easiest mode of transport is KTM, which, I believe that none will recommend even if we have all the time in the world to loose.

They are leaving San Francisco on the end of the month and will be going to Singapore first, then Bali, and then KL ! Oh yeah. I am so excited now. I could remember, this was the same excitement I felt back in 2007, the year they visited after really long. I had a big foolscap size note book prepared to plan for their next visit. Yes I did that. Sad as it was, time flew by, everyone was busy and so 4 years has passed. That's why I am praying everyday for this time to happen !

So yeah, I read my uncle's e-mail about their schedule, plans and thank god I have a one week study break when they're coming over ! Screw studying lah, I am going to ROCK KL UPSIDE DOWN ! okay lah I will try really hard to study everything before they come, then after they're gone I still have some time to catch up with the last minute revisions, something I've been doing for the past 13 years. (LOL)

Having to begin from no where, I remembered the KL HopOn-HopOff tour package that I myself have not tried. Other than being able to have a peep at the tour map and the ticket rates, this other page is under maintenance. I'll probably get back there tomorrow. Also, I have to call mom to ask her about the plans as well. Sigh, hate it when I have this much authority to make decisions. Oh well, as for now, the plan is to suggest that they stay in KL town itself, then one of us will either stay with them or not at all. As for the places to visit, I will still have to check for the opening hours, route, transport and et. cetera.

Other than those famous tourist hotspots,I will definitely bring them around some local lepak places. Well since we're going to be around KL, the local lepak places will still be those pretty well known ones. Disregard of what the cousins and folks would prefer, there will definitely be a lot of street food and malls ! I am pretty sure whoever's reading this has already have a mindful of must see places and must try delicacies ! One thing though, they're not totally that ang moh lah.

umm yeah, till the next update about their visit !

Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it

2011-04-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

Why condemn something that you have no knowledge of, something that means nothing to you but means the world to someone else, something that you do not belong ?

I say it is god's will for me to discover these forgotten news of genocides, massacres, and discrimination.

Most people know about the Massare of Jews and Christians, does anyone know about the 1984 anti Sikh riots, also known as the Sikh Pogrom in northern India ? The May 13th incident in Malaysia ? How about the Chinese Massacre by the Japanese, in Malaya, during the World War II ?

I am sure that I have missed out many more of these past killings around the world. The thing is, until today, the millenium era, an era of advanced technology and education, people are still doing the same.

As of today, BBC news South Asia reported at least 8 foreign UN workers have been killed in Afghanistan during an attack on a UN compound in the northern city of Mazar-e Sharif. The violence occured during the protest over the burning of the Koran in a US church last month.

The way I would look at this is, when there's no spark, there wouldn't be a fire. All these things occur in chains and web systems. All parties take responsibility to the consequences and there should be no special treatment to anyone living on this earth as all of us should be equal, none of us are pioneers or indigenous to this land of Mother Earth.

Why should there be anyone to claim themselves as pioneers or aborigines ?

It all comes back from the very beginning of identification, classification and comparison. This was how the society was created.

Why ??

It's a learning process

2011-02-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

I hate it. Everytime that one person tries to correct me after something I said. I'm wrong, just correct me the normal way. Is it neccessary to give me a feckin punch in the face ? So I say, it is a learning process. Face it.

Anyhow, this is not giving me the excuse to make other people's life a living hell.

Love

2011-02-21T03:48:00.001+08:00

What is your definition of Love ?

Once, I asked some friends, just a random question. I asked the few of them, what's their definition of love, most answered - something that exist between couples, a boy and a girl. This one girl asked me again, are you just asking 'what is love?' I said yes. Her answer was - God. God is Love.

Many people in this current era do not believe in Love any more, maybe that is why the appearance of atheism. This could be the reason behind the raging rise in animalism within human behaviour.

Love is something that you do not see with just the window to your soul. She, is something very soft and gentle that exist, only when you do not deny. She is something that you will only feel, and realise when you are drowned within her spirit. At this point, there is no turning back, you are, already Loved.

Love, is like a flower, you can put it into any type of container. A vase, a pot full of soil, a bouquet and etcetera. This is why you can get so many different definition of one word. Love, can be applied to that relationship between you and your lover, you and your family, you and your favourite idol, you and God.

Love exists. Though many denies, for me, I am living in the womb of Love. Because I do not deny Love, I feel better every day. Even though I don't get what I desire, I know that I am, in Love.

Don't be like me

2011-02-12T11:51:00.001+08:00

1st July 2009 - 28th January 2011, my journey through the cold and harsh A-Levels. 3 months before I signed up for this course, me and my friends celebrated the moment of our life when the SPM results were released. I scored well. Everything was perfect before A-Levels. Literally everything. My results were awesome, begged lots of gold medals on the track and field meets, school prefect, one of the leaders too. Well, we could agree that my socialising skills were very much off track, but, my attitude was still in control. My studying attitude, respect for the adults, teachers, friends, classes.

I'm gifted. Yes. I don't know what went wrong. One day I just decided to decide to not wake up to attend the lessons for the day, and it went on and on. Initially I had hope, and faith, and some load of confidence that I can nail A-Levels with ease. Unfortunately, first semester results did not come out colourful. They were dull. Depressing. It pulled me down, below anything you can ever imagine. Then I got involved in the college's Student Council board. Everyday for the whole of second semester was busy. That was when I started missing alot of classes. I wake up everyday feeling lousy and tired. Classes seem meaningless because I would either not concentrate or fall asleep. What's the point of being present, but not there ?

Yeah you're right. Since my first fall, I never came back up. Not that I didn't try, I just did not try hard enough ? I'm not sure if I should say that, but yes, I couldn't agree less. Now, every single day, I talk to myself, I ask myself :" What went wrong ? HOW ?" until today, I still don't have an answer. Maybe I already do, but I chose to be in denial and not face the fact because it is already over. I want to forget about it as if nothing happened. Everyday I pray that I can pull through my final exams and at least get into my degree with minimal pressure from the WORLD.

Other than those sucky exams and classes, on the other side of my life, I lied. I lied so much. To my mummy, sisters, friends and God. I wanted to live the life like a movie star, like I can do anything I like and no one cares because I don't give a damn. So things happen, I lied my way through, at the end of it, I didn't get anything, but I lost everything. I lost all the trust from the people who matters the most. Who will ever trust me ever again ? Hopefully I can still rebuild this bridge from scratch and it would be as strong as ever. That's gona take some time, some effort. At least I don't have to walk on egg shells any more.

I'm having a very long break before my next intake, which, hopefully, will be in July 2011. I'm inspired by a friend, to work hard and get what only I deserve, at the mean time, be humble and patient. Times will change. Enough is enough. Last Chance Saloon, nail it or cry over a swollen thumb.

Pretty bored lately

2011-01-17T10:30:00.001+08:00

never been so stressed

2011-01-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

Exams are really getting near right now. Only one week left. Right now, the last thing I need is these hormones playing me out, giving me all these emotions and unpleasant feelings about the whole world..

Memories are playing like a film without sound. Past sourness are coming back to me. Yeah. Not that they're killing me, but they just add up to those unwanted emotions that I'm trying really hard to fight back. What's worst is, those recent bitter moments that are still so fresh like the parfume that I just applied to my temples.

Yeah. Right there in my brain. repeating and repeating on its own.

Today, I just decided that I really can't continue living like this. I have to be more humble. For that, I just have to start by learning to keep quiet. Yes, that simple. You think it's very easy don't you ? Lets just try to do it yourself. Then you will understand why did I make this a big issue.

I guess I'm still fresh to this brutal world and just haven't found the right people to live with. Money come and go, friends come and go, best friends come and go, but my prerogative will always stay. I choose what I want to do, what I want to be, and who I want to be. No one gets to say one thing about it. This is how I want the rest of my life to be like. Just me, myself and God.

Right. I just pray that everything goes smooth and I don't meet too many haters along the way and that I don't make myself enemies at all.

-xo-

one week

2010-12-28T00:28:00.001+08:00

so it is. one week with you burying yourself at camp :) but it also means one week without you talking to me before I'm happy enough to go to sleep.

it's day 6 now. what have I been doing all week to substitute the irreplaceable comfy-ness.

(1) stare blankly at my facebook home page, hoping that maybe, just maybe, miraculously you would get back early and post a link of your new favourite Dream Theater's video.
(2) check out msn every 5 mins hoping to see your icon at the 'available' corner.
(3) tryin really hard to focus on the books. exam's two week's away.
(4) listen to your favourite songs

yes. i'm missing you badly. haha ! and i kinda like this feeling. :)

owkay. one more day ! can't wait !

p/s : i should stop acting like you belong to me :p

-xo-

why do I study ?

2010-12-27T01:59:00.001+08:00

So what's the reason behind this one thing that every single student under heaven and earth always rant about ?

According to my brain, I study so that I can gain knowledge to solve various kinds of weird problems that I may encounter along my way as I wake up everyday and take that precious breath of life. That sounds like a better reason than what we all are actually doing. Yes it's true. All of us are struggling to get merits and straight As to sustain a secure future. To get into prestigious universities so as to be recognised by the brutal corporate world. For many centuries, this is the only way to obtain a secure and easy life, and to survive. If you don't follow this path, in the end, you will have to live a hard life, with little to eat and thin layers to wear.

So, it's been one month since I last started preparing for my January Edexcel exam. One month already. I want to say that I wish I had done more work, but I can't turn back time. Hopefully whatever that I've been doing will be paid of well. My first paper will be on the 10th of next month. That's in two week's time !! omgfml. AGH ! SO SOON ! hmmph. Right now I'm just trying my best to practice as much as possible, without much procrastination and wasting my time. This is my final exam you know. If I still don't do well to bring up my grades, I'm DOOMED !

First paper is Core 2 Mathematics. One of which I'm retaking in hope to better my grade. Hopefully it's not a killer one. That's because, so far in my practices, I can handle those questions quite well. So yeah. Next after this paper will be Psychology Unit 1. Also one of those that I'm redoing, for you know what. Psychology is bluueh . x( very sickening. Agh. Don't wana talk about this subject. Its a LOVE HATE relationship, a very painful one indeed.

Right. so long for today. The thought of the very close exam is killing me. toodles !

-xo-

The Way I Like It

2010-12-26T00:59:00.001+08:00

Well well it's a wonderful Christmas after all. :)

So, my random thoughts again. Tonight, its all about being myself and not trying too hard to please someone that I secretly like. Not a secret any more actually. :p

There was this really strong attraction and chemistry between the two of us at the beginning. Soon later, things sort of faded away. Not me.

I get influenced very easily. Still, I have my own stand in the decisions I make. I got close with this two awesome babes in my class. We hang out everyday. Every single available day. Then we started listening to the same songs and soon enough, BAM ! we started dancing to the same song, in our heads. Just he 3 of us. No one else.

We may be so very in sync. Still, we are unique individuals created by our Lord. I am always very direct and will pierce you through your intestines when I give a comment. Both of them aren't. There's a good and bad to this habit of mine. Sometimes people just DO NOT want that reality talk for that 10 seconds, or maybe they just don't want it at all. So yeah. I hurt people alot. I seem to act like I don't care, but I do, and I'm really trying hard to look at the big picture before saying something.

Yeah. I get influenced so much I even sound like one of them. :) NAISE.

Back to my real reason of writing this post. YES. Its about this guy whom I like. VERY MUCH. We are sort of totally different.

Similarities - WE LOVE SPORTS !

Difference - He's a hard core Rocker and I'm not.

I never liked hard rock. Maybe just a little. Right. I like him so much I want his attention so much I would wake up at 7a.m just to meet him in college early and stare at him from a distance, wait for him to come over to talk, wait for him to look up and hopefully towards where I'm sitting, so that I can wave frantically hopefully to catch his attention. YES. That mad.

The thing is, I don't find it necessary to start loving rock bands or the EPL.

Occasionally, I would download the song that he's listening to, just to see what is't really like. If I like it too, I will save that song and well, listen to it. He doesn't like the genre of songs that I normally listen to. I wouldn't be surprised if he doesn't have the latest hit in his iTunes. So that's the way it is. I wouldn't change completely just to please this one person. Too bad if he doesn't like me the way I am.

Right.. Now it's starting to sound like I got this whole post from some internet dating website, or Dating 101 / Dating for Dummies.

So. What about you ? ; )

Grown up

2010-12-24T23:24:00.001+08:00

So, I just read my older posts and found out how much I've grown. Only because I could see how childish the way I was writing. :) So yeah. I don't think I want to delete those posts. Well maybe I deleted some :) teehee ...

Blogging was never my thing. I don't know. I need to prepare for my January Edexcel exam now. new things happened. Nice ones. Not so nice ones. Awful ones. Sigh. I just read a blog of a friend's friend. Very inspiring :) Awesome because he could spend so much time and concentration into creating such master piece. Very well done indeed. Maybe it didn't even take him alot of time and effort you know :) these people are just naturally gifted.

Oh well. I hope I can have a wonderful Christmas this year. Merry Christmas !

-xo-

the great mind

2010-09-26T02:55:00.002+08:00

Alot of times, i break down crying for an issue that doesn't even concern me. Maybe it does concern me, thats why I would even start thinking of it right. The thing is, i would think of it as a really serious problem and start to analyse and wonder why do people make decisions like this and why do things happen in this way.

This wonderful afternoon in year 2008, I came home from high school and felt a little weird, sort of restlessness in my body. What i did to overcome this awkwardness was by playing the piano. I could not remember what song was I playing. The problem started when I finished playing and right away started thinking about hypocrisy. As the idea of it came into my mind like a flying arrow, i started tearing and it got worst the more I tried to stop it because it was ridiculous. Come on, why would a happy little girl suddenly feel awkward and starts playing the piano and then breaks down crying ?

As I was still trying to stop thinking about it and relax, as I would normally do, I went to my bed, burried my face beneath my pillow and cry out my mind. After awhile, it didn't stop. Things got worst when I hear my mom's car driving into the car porch. Immediately I scrambled up and went into the bathroom to try to cool down and put the thought away, but it wouldn't. It's been about an hour since it started. Then I came out and went to get some water, mom noticed that I was crying, and as every mom would do, she asked me what's wrong. There I was right in the same kitchen with her, i could not hide anything at all, so I had to tell her. There, we had a talk.

This was one of the major crazy thoughts that made me go crazy. Other than this, I've had many other thoughts that i wonder whether would any other friend of my age would ever think about. What I did was, I approached a very wise friend whom I and many other friends and adults trust. I asked him whether have he thought about the things that i have in my mind and he was stunted and thought that I must be some Saint that was sent from heaven to help the people or something. Of course he did not mean that seriously. The point is, so far, no one, sane, at my age would think of such things and let it bug their life.

Recently, I did not do well for my mathematics paper and my mom got called to the college to have a talk with my lecturer. All things went well with her and as we were leaving, she talked to another lecturer of mine. It was a pretty long chat and the contents pretty much heated me up. Not entirely, because I had to take up responsibilities for the things that I have done, such as skipping many lessons. Well, the other things that they mentioned were NOT true. That really made me upset. I really don't know what is going in their heads. One end they say one thing and the other a different thing. Hmmmh ..

Many times, I wish that I am not gifted with a brain that could think of so many things. I wish that my brain could focus on the basic things that I need for my survival, according to the period of time that I am going through. Example, right now, my brain only need to think about my studies, focus on understanding and remembering the facts, being in good health mentally, physically and socially. I want a SIMPLE life.

Could anyone ever have a simple, non complicated life ?

?

2010-08-19T12:26:00.000+08:00

The problem is, all my life i was a straight A student. ok almost.. the thing is... right now, i cant even reach half of what i've been completing all this while.

Back then, with all the sports and months of absence from class, i can still do it. Probably its because of the tuition classes.. oh yeah. and its definately because its so much easier. plus, it was under the Malaysian Education System.. they change the scoring system according to the overall score. What bullshit.

So yeah, got my second sem results this morning. It took me about 20 mins to flip over that blardy slip for my results. Its BAD. and I didnt reach my expectation at all. NOT AT ALL. NOT EVEN ONE ! bullshit.

Okay I think i shouls like seriously stop cursing now .... hrmm. back to topic.

The issue was, why aren't I achieving what I have been achieving ?? as mentioned, its because, right now, I'm taking A-levels and its EDEXCEL, suppose to be easier but I dont know, i wana say that maybe the Cambridge A-levels would be better for the way my brain works, but at the same time I can only blame myself for not working as hard to be competent. YEAH. imcompetance is the word that i'm gonna use to describe myself right now. pfffft. i needa put more work cognitively. Practice makes perfect yeah. hopefully this time I can work things out and give some results.

Now that I want to retake a few subjects because i want my results to be better, I'm gonna go through hell once again .... haaaaah.....

Him

2010-07-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

For some reason, I love this picture so much.

I love to speak to Him for he's the only one who understands every inch of me and has a solution for me.

when I feel lazy, He
when I feel weak, He gives me strength
when I feel angry, He calms me down
when I feel lonely, He gives me company

when I feel nothing at all, He keeps me goin on.

trouble trouble trouble

2010-07-17T23:35:00.002+08:00

Ever since I was so lazy to bring a bottle of my own water to college, I've been dehydrating alot. Moreover, the weather is just so bad. There I go, first came a bad sore throat, which I clearly saw it coming, then now comes the non stop coughing. Serves me right.

Other than that, I can't figure out why am I being so 'excusefull'. I've been quite hardworking in completing my homework and assignments + practicing on the piano. One more thing that i have to change is to make sure i wake up in time everyday and attend every lesson. No reason for me to 'try' or 'make it if possible'. Seriously this is getting onto my nerves.

It struck me when my Psychology lecturer said : " I stayed up late too, and I still make it for your class and my night class ! " Biology lecturer said : " How would you like it if I come in half an hour late or if I randomly don't show up for class ?" Well they didn't say it because of me only.. =) they said it because the overall attendance was poor.

It all makes sense .. Urgh .. since secondary school, god knows from where did I get this habit of skipping class. Yeah its a confession. I've been skipping alot of lessons lately. Not that you don't know, just that some people still don't know.

Maths lecturer said :" Let your friends help you, let them give you a morning call ", and so they did ! and it worked .. but I cant just depend on them all the time.... urgh ... what do I do ? WHAT DO I DO ??

my new toy

2010-06-22T07:36:00.007+08:00

This is TUMBLELOG !!! It is a form of blog where we share our thoughts and daily updates. Why is it so fun ? That's because we can easily upload pictures and videos, texts and quotes. There's a special column where we just click whichever function we want to use and voila ! a very big and clear image is shown !! Fast and Easy !! Try it yourself to know how great tumberlog is !!

visit my site for a start !

Go to tumblelog , sign up , and there'l be a guide on how to use this blog. =)

head strong

2010-06-20T21:34:00.003+08:00

When I start blogging i can really write about everything and anything under heaven and earth ! lol .. so, instead of studying and/or practicing the piano, I started reading some friend's blog.

Earlier this month or so I read another friend's blog which is some what similar to this one that I just read. Totally honest and BRUTAL. I like it. =)

Now you can start doubting me for my honesty while posting. LOL !!
Answer is : I do not have to say things that I don't wish to share.. this is a place for me to express myself the way I like, not to attract attention and neither is this a place to humiliate friends.

So yah, don't read my blog if u don't see why am I posting random thoughts and believes or things that I like very much.

Well back to this friend's blog. Maybe it would be better if she'd clarify things face to face and get it done with, but c'mon, this is Malaysia and we're chinese the way chinese are suppose to be. Thus, its really hard to sit, be brutal right into the face and leave everything on the table and live as new souls. I find it really hard to do that with certain people, IDK, maybe i haven't tried ? Or maybe I've been conditioned to not do so? I'll go for the second thought. - I tried . it back fired as expected -

There's tonnes of things that I've learnt since I started letting my guards down in college and mix around with my the peeps there. They're different. I'm talking about lifestyle and goals. These people, most of them, parties like rock stars and scores like the rainbow in their finals. I believe that it's really some sort of good influence. Being with them makes me change my lazy attitude and start working hard to reach my goals. (Its not impossible you know) =)

Yet, I haven't found another person who can talk and share thoughts like how I can share with my bf. OK maybe one, but there's stuffs that we don't see eye to eye, there, I couldn't talk about those issues without having a feeling that he's judging me. Maybe he's not, but..

Back in form 5, I met this tuition teacher was kinda young (for a teacher) and we could share ideas and thoughts openly, he's one of the 'my kind'. HAHAHA !! Unfortunately, it could be because of the difference in our schedules and yaada yaada, we stopped talking like we use to.

Finally, my final shout out to this post : Peeps, I know that y'all are talking, as in gossiping about me too. Just wanna tell you that the more you talk bad about someone, the more the DEVIL's gonna make that person do the same thing. and you're gonna be harmed more than ever. (well thats the first reason you started gossiping - cuz you're harmed, in whatever reason that it could be. My suggestion - you're jealous.)

Oh well, for more of 'my kind' people to come. <3

reposting again

2010-04-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

This is my second sister EAT's blog post claiming that i look like Zee Avi.. Like seriously.. got meh ?? =D Knowing that i dont read her blog very often, she purposely sent me a message on facebook to tell me this and guess what io replied ?? ahahahah !! cant resist being my perasan self !

So here you go

>>>>>>>>>

SUNDAY, MARCH 21, 2010

She looks like my small sis...

Especially in this pic, rrrrrright!

Big sis agreed, and so did another few. Same nose, same pointed eyes, same pout!

When I told small sis about it, see what she said...
"seriously ? i can sing like her too you know. i just need a ukelele ... sigh"

immune

2010-04-26T03:20:00.000+08:00

huiting said :' I dont know why dont i see it as a problem as how they all see it as a problem.'

friens said :' It's one of your problem for not seeing it as a problem. "

Seriously i dont know whats wrong with me, everyone's seeing it as a problem but i just think its part of life and soon he'll see his mistakes and learn to change it.Or he just thinks thats the best way to live life, so he will stick to it. This is a non boy friend matter that im talking about and i think i shouldn't expose too much information here.. tell me now should we make the other person change just because we see his way of doing things as something 'wrong' ?? It may be wrong for us but to him its perfectly fine. Who in the world is to say what's wrong or what's right ? (other than certain scientifically proven wrong things like smokin, drugs, and so on)

Some people wana put almost everything from a religious point of view. No offence but seriously if thats the way, nothing can be done ... but of course if there's no need, we do not need to violate the believe and practices.

Am i having a major problem or is it because I'm currently studying psychology thats why I'm seeing things from a far different perspective. Some people claim my views as childish and unreasonable but some the other way round. Tell me the classification of childish, immature and mature. Honestly i need a clear classification before i go nuts.(literally)

For now i think im just so immune to problems.Since young i've faced a million times more trouble and problems than any other average person of my age. Well im not suggesting that I'm currently facing THE MOST problem in the whole friggin wide world. You get what i mean right ? =/

I need a solution. Guidance ? I dont know about that, the right thing for you may be a different thing for me and i really dont know which is the right thing...

You tell me what is right and what is wrong.

what would you do ?

2010-04-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

sigh .. you know that no one's perfect. Moreover, you know that you yourself is far away from perfect. So what would you do when a person in your group wants to point out someone else's flaw ?

To me it's best that all of us sit together and clear out the mist. MIST ? I dont think its mist anymore, its a very very thick cloud of FOG ! hmmm... from the very begining i wanted to voice out already, but i've been absent from alot of major situations that cost me tonnes of evidences. Back then, i thought i was alone in this and that i might get back fired instead. SEE ?? when you don't grab hold of opportunities, this is what you're left with ...

Another thing is i don't see why they just don't wana sit together and talk. Reason given is that the situation might get emotional and everyone's gonna cry. >> the problem will still be solved instead of playing safe and giving no impact right? Well i don't think we should reach a point where everyone starts crying.

Time to grow up and face the real deal and hold up your emotions darlings.. this is the real world. Not everything can be done safely. You just gotta strike your foot on the stones and learn to endure the pain. Want life to be smooth and easy ? I want a life like that too...

Tell me now what's the best solution ??? please gimme the advice. msn me to tell me more ! =S

my mind is open and ready to accept advices or worst to worst, criticism. <3

Sometimes

2010-04-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

Once in a while i love to read other blogs and get myself drowning with enviousness of how much luxury those people are enjoying. Sigh, imma work hard and smart so that one day soon, i can be like them too. right ? hrmm .. start from now bebeh !!

orientation camp

2010-02-01T14:23:00.001+08:00

MCKL Orientation Camp - batch 1001

29th - 31st Jan 2010

eng hoe tryna cool down by huggin the water dispenser .

Ranita's bday !!

Irma showing the pretty cake we asked unc Jack to buy for us.

The O SO BEAUTIFUL bday Cake

Dragon fly on eng hoe's hair

ming hui - just woke up

OC was kinda fun for all of us. oh well other than getting a leech on my navel ! everything else was pretty relaxing and FUN !

other wise, thing were a lil boring too. Its cuz i kinda volunteered to be a facilitator this time. =)

oh well, more pics and updates soon !!!

a perfect morning to start a day

2010-01-07T12:42:00.000+08:00

woohoo ! sent my sis to the train station around ten-ish then picked up two lovelies and headed straight to Old Town.

We ordered the breakfast set real quick and started chatting.

the view i had from were i sat was kinda pretty, but as i turn around and look behind, tsk ..

we talked and talked .. no food came. so i called this guy and told him. there and then, one of 3 of our dishes came. woohoo ! so i thought mine's coming real soon too. but after a long wait, STILL NO FOOD !
friggin lousy service. and we had to call the waiters again. THEN they served another 1 of the dishes that we ordered.

so i started eating and took my own sweet time and finished it, and they STILL DIDNT SERVE THE LAST DISH !! and its not like they have to cook it upon customer's order. its just nasi lemak k.. and we waited and waited ... ZZZzzzz and we gotta call this waiter AGAIN to ask for our nasi lemak. =/

come on.. were did the brains go ? pffft ... oh well, it wasnr as bad tospoil my beautiful day. gona have an early start to study now.. MATHS ! urgh ..

another day of head ache

2010-01-05T19:08:00.001+08:00

have been waking up with head aches lately. really suckish.

really, i do not find the reason for me not being able to sleep earlier.
and its not like i can concentrate if i study. =S

im starting to think of what m i gona do in college.

last year i was selected to be the Food Club's vice secretary. guess i'll be sticking with this club this sem too.
i'm thinking of joining the Debate Club. but seriously idk what do i do there and who else is in that club. i just wana join for fun, talk about stuffs and improve my knowledge. NOT for any other purposes k .

hrmmm... cant wait to be in my 'new' college. (its renovation has completed)
woohoo !! and the new library ! hrmmm .. im still wonderin where's our locker. o.O

MCKL here i come !

officially DONE !

2009-12-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

loola !!!!

im officially done with Chemistry. my dear friends and family all pray that i at least pull through this final edexcel exam.

okay .. what im gona miss about chem is the practicle classes ... NEVER EVER will i miss the lectures ... ! !

sigh ... its like a really big thing for me you know. its kinda life changing. cuz chem is the "keystone" subject.. now im stuck with psychology and i REALLY wana get something outta it ..

hrmmm ... time to really go for it man.. January 11 !! ookay .. uh .. kinda freaking out right now .. so much to do !! so little time !

me

2009-12-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

why m i always hungry ? well .. i went to KLCC with wan yee today.

1# disturbed sis woking at Boost Juice Bar

2# lunch at food court

3# CD shopping at random stores

4# The Body Shop shopping ! - super pretty christmas collection !-she bought tonnes of products and i had none =(

5# random store window shopping

6# her unsalted butter hunting.so it all started here. first we went to cold storage.i saw these juicy hams lying around.ok.stopped myself from buying them.then she said the choices at cold storage is fairly little and suggested Isetan's supermarket.we went there, PFFFT !!! MORE JUICY HAMS ! sigh... what can i do ? well.. i still managed to stop my self from buying.

therefore im stuck here. hungry . gona find sumthin to eat real soon .

continued...

wan yee ended up buying so many other things other than unsalted butter.

btw, we bought this mango flavoured TOFU PUDDING ! it is just like pudding but less gelato and more solid.tasted like tofu-fah but just mango-ed.well, tofu pudding IS tofu-fah. =D

something like this but in a small plastic container and no toppings

ISETAN = good shopping

LOVED TODAY ! <3

reason

2009-12-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

why did i change my blod add ?

1# as my sis said, im retired. =D
2# sick of calling my self 'sports princess. ( so desperado-sickish )
3# im going OLD SKOOL NOW !!! ( claps and cheers frantically )

so, yeoldskool.blogspot.com it is.

CHEERS !!

sigh .. i miss cheer so much.. we're doing the basket toss ON OUR OWN ALREADY ! then the college hols have to come in.Then, Jaita cant come back for practice.

WHY !!!???

and,

IM NOT A STORY BOOK READER ! but im finishing the Marian Keyes 'The Other Side of The Story' already. WHY ? because i'm just so lazy to do my revision for the January Edexcel exam.

you must be wondering.it's reading too right ? absolutely not..
doing revision/studying for the exam,
1# we have to remember those facts.
2# the book is so big and heavy we cant hold it comfortably and read it anywhere we like.
3# REVISING SUCKS.

im being really rude lately.cuz its like it doesnt matter being rude anymore when everyone is cursing whenever they feel so.

oookay.thats about it.

seriously

2009-11-29T17:49:00.000+08:00

i have so much to say.

days like that

2009-11-14T22:45:00.003+08:00

went to college early in the morn for IELTS mock test.. pffft ...

listening - i think it was owkay (other than that part where i missed the whole section of three questions ... =D)

reading - kinda unusual .. i could understand most of it easily (just hope that i understand it correctly)

writing - !@#$%^&* din know what to write .. so just crapped .

after that ,

>> i rushed to the chinese shop for lunch - had my favourite yong tau fu (brinjal/bitter gourd/fu chuk) with Lai Fen ...

>> called sis to see where is she - so that i can go back with her ...

>> bought a RM10.80 magazine from the indian newstans next to the makan shop ... (my highest was RM15.00)

>> went to Old Town to hang out - had a cup of kopi 'o'

>> took monorail to maharajalela - boarded sis's car and headed for piano class

what a day ... kinda relaxed around lunch time ... so care free ..

i wished everyday was like that... =)

i love me you know ? ( self obsessed)

i needa tell myself that i love my self so much so that i dont think stupid stuffs like - "omg im so stupid" and end up not studyin cuz i told myself that .. =.=

then it was piano class ... <3>

mom picked me up - went to parkson - met unc . Ho (i think thats his name =D )

bought my shampoo - bought food - went home

FINALLY I GET TO EAT PASTA !!!!

home made pasta ya'll .. its nothing like the outside . cuz ITS HOME COOKED !!! oh gorsh i just lurve plain spaghetti !

suppose to leave house by 7.10 to pick nicole up for the dinner .. but ended up leaving at 7.20-ish ... got stuck in the traffic for a while ... went for dinner ... THEN WE HAD 2nd ROUND at STATION 1 ! lol ... curse that singer guy .. he was late for his show and made me wait for so long ... pffft ... and he made me wait so so so super long for POKER FACE .. wasn't bad after all ..

then i left and headed back home .... HOME SWEET HOME !!!

tomorrow gota wake up early to eat grandma's sweet potato soup ad requested ! woohooo !!! who can get a grandma like her ? >> MEEE !!!!

lol ... i guess thats all for the day ... been so long since i wrote so much ... =D feel so good ... <3>

:(

2009-11-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

sad or wut ... ~~

just told him a bunch of my stories ... =D and made myself rmbr how happy i was during those sports days ! woohoo !!!

talkin to a frend like him is really nice .. =)

TALK MORE !!!!

am i ?

2009-10-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

i feel so lost and like i want so many things in life but just cant friggin getit larh .. damn stressfull and pissin off ...

like maths .. i just dont getit why do we hv to take it.

i know like its so friggin important thats y im friggin forcing myself to take it .. damn .. pffft ...

freak ... can i like take a break ... so tour then come back continue again ... NOO !!! i dont hv the money and the time.. actually time is not the problem ... i can just do my a levels again when im like so friggin older than the others ...

ffffft ... can i just fast forward the time ... ? one more thing .. i wish i can hang out with friends like last time again ... now ... my classes are finishing at 4 friggin 30 .. other wise i'd have cheer practice until 4.30 ....

soooooo boring ... everyday doing the same thing ... but actually i still hv a life now ... wait till i come out n work then il be doin the SAME FRIGGIN THING everyday ....

well at least by that time i hv money and MY OWN CAR to do things i wished to do ... not like now .. so bounded..

well .. thats life right ... ? =.=

god i pray to you to let my days be more cheerfull and exciting (in a good way) !!!

okay .. thats all im gona complain about ...

well the great part of today was i attended friends's diwali open house ... had tonnes of fun even though i appeared for just a while ... well met those old boyfriends and girlfriends !!!

okay .. thats all ..

PPL !!! pray for me !!

xoxo ! love ya'll

~* SPREAD THE LOVE *~

cant take it anymore .. ~~ BLuUEH ..

2009-09-02T19:17:00.002+08:00

EeeeEEeee .. the thought of going back to the bad hostel life is just making me puke ... =(

very disgusting wall on my side of the room.. very friggin small table.. very shabby library.. REALLLY SCARRY washroom !! there's no ceiling to the bathrooms...so im looking straight at the very old,rusty yucky plumbings....and its kinda dark...

hrmmm ... how do i tell mom about this ... sigh ... T.T and im paying RM 262 for it !! its not very expensive but its MONEY !!! hrmmm .. i can a much better environment u know ....

how i wish im in any of my sis's uni !! they're hostel is gaazilliion times better omg ... it really scares me off right now .

from now on i will not complain anything about my Muar grandma's house .. cuz ITS SO FRIGGIN MUCH BETTER TOO !!!

ive been livin there for two months now ... I DONT WANA STAY THERE ANY LONGER !!!!

:-(

defensive

2009-08-23T00:10:00.001+08:00

im always very defensive.. .but i dont like to keep on arguing when i know that the other person is giving ridiculous points ...

my point is..i dont give up easily when im correct. i only give up when what you are arguing is pointless.

gazed

2009-06-15T02:54:00.002+08:00

waking up in the middle of the night.

lookin into thin air.

wonderin.

tryna get back to sleep.

aint no sheeps comin in..

no sleep.

sleep ?

gota get back to sleep.

im still wonderin.

how to sleep ?

poo !

2009-05-24T10:28:00.006+08:00

BIG FAT ROTT WEILER !

now my home smells of dog poo ! hate it so much .. these ppl are just so irresponsible ! if u want a dog in this housing area ... pls potty train them ... other wise .. GET A BIGGER HOUSE ON YOUR OWN !! ass holes ...

sell those two rotting weilers and get yourself a bungalow then save up your money and get another smaller dog (small dog = small poop = less stinch) !

jack asses !

this will be good =D !

missy morning

2009-05-24T07:16:00.003+08:00

I LOVE THE MORNING AIR !

m awake at 7.00 a.m today .. woohoo !! so excited to go to the market and have brakfast with momzie.. =P

why did i wake up so early ?? cuz i love the feeling of breathing clean air ! o yah !

to all my darlings out there who are still waking up 6 hours after the SUN =) ya'll should try getting your ass up earlier so that you wont miss this FANTABULOUS time of the day ! woohoo !!

as for everyone, please practice to turn the frown upside down everymorning you wake up for the everyday reason .. =D !

but .. i dont know about the air in KL .. so .. I HEART MY HOME !

xoxo ! gtg gtr .. mwakx !

new record !

2009-05-21T09:37:00.002+08:00

woohooohoo !!! today is a new record day ! m so happy with it !!

well .. the news is i woke up at 8.00a.m today ! yeay !!

after this m goin to laoyat plaza with ma gurl..after that we'll see what happens .

why so excited ??? cuz its been centuries since i

m out with her ! ow yeah ! =D !!!

GTG, GTR ! =D !!

new record !

2009-05-19T17:31:00.002+08:00

WTH .. my all new record AGAIN !

hahahha ! i've once slept at 8.30 in the morn because of a track & field meet closing ceremony..

well, i broke the record again ! =D !

i slept at 8.30 in the morn today. . ma mind was so daymn alert.

guess what i did ?

:: 1) updated blog
:: 2) customised blog
:: 3) VACUUMED MY ROOM !!

ROFLMAO !

well i really gota get rid of this disorder ma collg. days are COMIN SOON !

WTH .. ciao -

a book

2009-04-27T19:42:00.002+08:00

just what i've always wanted

a book of gifts for your friends, family and spouse.

perfection high tea 18 april 2009

seriously ?

2009-04-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

full time blogging ?

personally, i think bloggers (full time bloggers) are just so FAKE !

i read a blog on a person's life .. well i know this person ...

the truth is, WHO WOULD BE SO S.T.U.P.I.D to write about they're own ugly side ??

on the blog, its everything about how great he is and how his friends backstab him and tell u.g.l.y stuffs about himself to BRAIN WASH his partner .. WHAT THE HELL !!!!

i was so DAMN ! FRIGGIN ! REALLY ! pissed when i read the blog .. well .. why would i care right ? ~*~ because my life evolved around this person in the time setting of that post.

AND .. whats with :" Hey guys i'm sorry i didn't blog yesterday .. i was kinda busy... "

=.= !!!

i've never come across ppl telling :" sorry teacher i didn't finish my homework yesterday, i was kinda busy. "

this is so funnay ! =D

well .. then why am i blogging now ? =D

if you havent noticed, i DO NOT blog everyday. i only write something when i cant express my feelings verbally.So this is my only escape.

and this is one of them.

what to do ?

2009-04-25T00:21:00.002+08:00

what can i do when im so BORED ?

1) bolg till the TOP !

2) catch up some Gs .. haaha !

3) touch the face up

4) get updated on latest TECHS

5) get in touch with ma peeps

6) get fat cooking every favourite meal i love >.*

7) well .. read some books .. ( the last thing imma do . haaha !! )

music

2009-04-24T00:37:00.001+08:00

how can these songs make you feel this way ....?

these musicians are just god in disguise.

when i grow up.

2009-04-24T00:35:00.001+08:00

i wana live life to the fullest.

stop Oit.

2009-04-24T00:24:00.001+08:00

stop the gossip > life'll be better . =)

i needa keep in touch

2009-04-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

i miss my darlings .... those days where we wake up in the morning > see each other > HUGGS !!!

time flew so effin fast ! feelin blue now .. sobs ..

..............................................................................................................................................................................

what a life .. (feeling pinkish today) ~wonder what it means~

2009-04-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

went to the school's high achiever's award ceremony today .. what a blast .... NOT !

friends who've changed they're look just have the same brain !

friends who are still the same just bought a new brain from the store ..

what a life . those whom you want them to remain the same just wont be ! and vice versa .

its a hard knock life .

hurmms ...

what else can i say .. things happen for a reason . and for real, i like the way they've changed . =)

i love you guys. ALL !!

adieu.mwaks.

home alone

2009-04-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

Home alone

BUT THE AGAIN
By MARY SCHNEIDER

MY HOUSE is quiet. Eerily quiet. If I sit in my living room with my windows open, I can hear sounds I’ve never heard before: my neighbour clearing his throat, my neighbour’s wife laughing, the birds chirping, my neighbour clearing his throat, dog tags clinking as a neighbourhood mutt runs by, my neighbour clearing this throat ...

My neighbour is a lovely man, but I’d rather not spend extended periods listening to him expectorate in a loud and basic manner.

This time last year, I had two teenagers living in my house. Now there’s only me, and I’m not quite sure I’m suited to being home alone. Of course, it’s early days yet. I only said goodbye to my daughter a week ago, and I’ve been told that I should give myself a chance to adjust to my new normal.

Still, I read a newspaper report the other day about an old lady who was dead for two months before her body was discovered in her apartment. It wasn’t even a concerned relative who found her propped up in a chair with the TV still on.

It was the local police, who had been summoned after one of the old dear’s neighbours had complained about the “horrible stink” coming from her apartment. As if expiring alone is not bad enough, she was then relegated to the “something doesn’t smell right” category, and will probably be remembered as such by all her neighbours.

What a sad testimony to the state of family these days.

I’m sure Elsie (I’d rather give her a name than refer to her as “the deceased”) was once a young dynamic woman, with legs that could make a man salivate from a distance of 100m, an infectious laugh, a sharp probing mind, and hair that shone like burnished copper in the sunlight. I’m sure she loved and nurtured her children, and made certain they were educated and had a good start in life. I’m also sure, somewhere along the way, that the same people she loved just plain stopped caring about her.

Now that I’m on my own, I read stories about people like Elsie, and I wonder ... But I don’t wonder for long.

My children wouldn’t leave me to die alone watching yet another re-run of Friends on Astro. My children know better than that.

You see, I’ve told them on numerous occasions that if they don’t come and visit me and call me regularly when I’m old, I will pack my suitcase and visit them, distance no obstacle. Now, my visits might just end up being long protracted affairs, occasions that my daughter-in-law or son-in-law will, I’m sure, always remember.

Like I said, I think my children will visit me.

But I digress.

My friends who have already experienced the empty nest syndrome assure me that I will get over it fairly quickly.

“Once you get used to having all your time to yourself in the evenings, you won’t want to give it up,” one friend said, after I’d bemoaned the stillness of my house. “I cook when I want to cook, and eat when and what I want to eat. I also don’t have to share the TV with anyone, or chauffeur people around at all hours. I love the peace and quiet.”

Truth be known, I’d love to cook for someone other than just myself. There’s nothing sadder than a meal for one.

These days, instead of the lively dinner-time conversations I was accustomed to when my children were at home, I sit at the end of my dining table and listen to myself eat. I resist the temptation to switch on the TV. I don’t want to turn into the sort of person whose sole companion is the idiot box. I refuse to make such substitutes.

Actually, the worst part of living alone is not the “being alone” aspect. It’s returning to an empty house every day. There’s no one to greet me, or complain to me, or ask me for advice as soon as my key turns in the lock.

I’m also still not used to the sight of an undisturbed living room, or a kitchen countertop that shows no signs of hurriedly-made snacks, or a sink that is devoid of used drinking glasses.

This too will pass, I’m sure. And when I’m finally used to the serenity and order, my children will come crashing back into my house, and I will have something else to moan about.

the star Monday April 13, 2009

live it like the rainbow !

2009-03-29T17:39:00.005+08:00

live your life as colourfull as the rainbow !

listen to yourself .

2009-03-19T22:47:00.004+08:00

>they dono what they want .. they are still so naive ...

the truth is . you already know what you want . you seem to be blurr when these people keep telling you defferent things or tell you something that differs from what you want . you were on the right track until :"are you sure you want to so this anot .... ?? "

am i right ??? this is so true !

however , the salt that they've consumed is way more than the rice we've eaten .. adults tend to give us so many ideas and is asking so much from us is because they've been through it . they wana give us a hint of what is the world like and they absolutely do not want us to go through what they've been through .

if i were them {which will only take twenty years time to happen) i would do the same thing too my "kids" too .

even now , i'm doing it to my friends ..... =.= i'm old .. i know ... but i'm happy that i'm old . in a sense that i'm a lil matured ... i know what i should do .

1) thy shall take advices not too far beyond what your heart tells you to do . take the advice if its good by right . not by what you think is good.

~ i forgot what i wanted to say ... adieu .. mwah ! ~

what do you want ???

2009-03-18T23:11:00.003+08:00

o.k your result is really good ! congratulations !

*****few months back*****

what do you want to study ?

~o i'd love culinary and culinary arts ...

>it's so not a good choice .. you dont have to study to be a chef .. its so not a good career ..

~why ?

>you just dont see a point in studyin for it k.. you really dont hv to spend the money to study for it.it comes with you..there's no point studyin for it..

~ok..(insisted in taking up this course)

*****few months later(somewhere before SPM)*****

~urmm .. what else can i do other than culinary?

#(dono from where)#

~nutrition should be a good study ..

>yeah food tech should be good ! cuz later on you can branch out into different fields .. brighter future.

~(food science/nutritionist/food tech-info,college,universities hunting.)

*****after SPM*****

~(education fair)~(education fair)~(education fair) - food science/nutrition is not bad..can get scholarship/period of course not very long...pharmacy aint that bad..more popular and wider knowledge abt it..ok pharmacy will be 2nd choice.

***later***

>you know actually you can study economics and business too .. you'l earn alot from there..btw,it helps you if you wana be a chef or nutritionist..

~(insists in taking up nutrition/food tech)~(attended open days @ college for food science & nutrition)

>o this college is quite good and you can get good tuition fee waive..transport not bad..hostel is cool..we'll see how..

~(edu fair)-this other college offers food tech/dietetics .. o man the lecturer cant even speak..-forget abt it..

>actually this college not bad wut...but one thing is that it requires a levels and as you said the lecturer dont speak well..no point then .. how abt the cert ? local or what ?

~ i think both the colleges offers local cert..

o..then its not very good .. ok ok lar .. better if can get overseas cert.i'd love you to study in NUS..

~(friend started college for pharmacy..good facilities bla bla..friend seducing to study at the same coll)

~(still PREFER food science/nutrition but other courses may work too..cuz that particular course aint that good in MY and its costly to study aboard..)

*****feb'09 march'09*****

NUS~~NUS~~NUS~~

~(NZ edu fair) - hey i think food science/nutrition in NZ will be good cuz they depend on food production to survive..

>yeah i think so too...

~how la all the public scholarships only offerin courses like econ/acc/law...

>nvm la just apply..

~ok..i dont mind studyin other courses cuz theres only 1% of'em offerin for what i want..

*****12th march 2009*****

wa your result is really good ! congratulations !

~so wut .. i still dont meet the criteria for those scholarships i WANT ... so lumb .. nvm .. still good enough for the other scholarships .. (application focus on foos science nutrition/pharmacy and whatever they offer.none was based on engineering.it was totally out of the track.

*****17th march 2009*****

>you should apply for this scholarship...engineering is good too...i think for the previous scholarship,you should've applied for chemical engineering.

#you a...food science nutrition is a good course...it part of the medical inds. but you should find out the pay you'll get when you're working .. if its low,dont waste your money studyin this course...study other courses better... **(before that)** you a..you should study what you like cuz you'l be doin it for the rest of your life ..

~how's your day at the temple today?

>ok lo ... they said that your future lies in the hands of engineering .

~ =.= !!! o.o !!!!

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

you will never know...

2009-02-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

who back stabs you . always be independant and never believe in fairy tales . real life is real life .

dont trust me ? then you shall take the pain and learn from it .

loves from : me .

searching for myself

2009-02-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

life is full of tough-ness . live it and let live just like everyone else says it .

when my post is so short . i have so much to talk about . . . . . . .

...........

l i v e & l e t l i v e

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

2008-12-29T22:20:00.003+08:00

Happy Christmas gathering and Have ay psosperous NEW YEAR !!!

murder

2008-10-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

once i thought that

live = shit

it was really horrible back then those days i go so emo cryin everyday ovr screwed up life ..

today , i've changed and transformed into an optimist ! as i can see , the difference is so clear that my life is so much easier . .

who ever comes in my way u'll be dead ! i wont be so stupid to murder you immediately and let my self be charged and bw centenced to death by the law . .

i have brains k . . and obviously i wont tell you . . duh ! . .

i will kill you in a way that only god knows how .

i love you baby and i do and i will forever .

mwakx !

so long . . .

2008-10-03T20:15:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i've said something here .. now since trials is over, i find some extra little time to spend here .

now ..

1) i passed my grade 6 piano practical exam with a short of 4 marks to get merit ! shitt ... nvrm .. still so glad i dint fail due to my "so excellent" sight reading ... mwahaha !!

2)spent my hols back at my kampung in belemang with my siss and mommy ... ms EE freak 2nd sis spent all day long doin her temp detector thing and askin for help to adjust her electrical board to perfection .... my kampung is in THE mess now ... o my ... we smell dust and cob web everywhere ... to my dear sis ... i do clean up my room k and you dont see my room in THAT kind of situation before ... mwahaha !! watched the whole 4 episodes of GG 2nd season .. superb !! cant wait till A.T get the rest of the episodes !!! o my !!

3)came back on tuesday and celebrated raya at Cg Suraya's house ... o yeah i get to slurrp up the soup of SARAWAK LAKSA !! lurv the taste of it ... then spent the afternoon at gramma's place with cuzzies the boys and the gurl.man thet're just so different .. i mean the way the express themself .. *wink*

4)5pm the same day,i hopped onto yimin's car and followed her family to the Taman Connought night market .. it was about a kilometre long !!! full of taiwanese and chinese cuisine !! and the local kuih is just so LOCAL ! it was delicious ! i gotta get my mommy to go there one day but NOT .. cuz it's so friggin crowded !!! we hardly have space to move kay .... o my ... sfter 1.30 hours there , we finished the so LonGG walk,unc yimin brought us to kepong for steamboat .. we call it LO LO mwahaha ! it was scrumptious !! absolutely !! this i gota bring mom there ! it's near the kepong Jusco .. sis you gotta get your bum bum there !!

5)went home and handed the "delicacies" to mommy then she and A.T indulged ! that what i say .. haha !

i spend so much time on the comp now playin the games P.T brought back .. man she's a real GAME QUEEN !! well thx to her i get all the entertainment .. mwahahha !! especially her PSP now .. mwahahah !!!! i still wana complete my harvest moon kay ... please come home more often ... mwahahah !!!

owyte ... till today .. i went all the way to selayang to change my post paid plan to pre paid .. but the chic said that the person authorised will have to work it .. daymn ! we wasted half an hour waiting .. =.= ... hate it ! and i had to say it out loud enough for the officers there that the RAWANG MAXIS CENTRE is attaining such bad services to customers that they should've informed us about the terms and conditions before sending us to selayang .. well its a good thing too cuz they're TRUELY Malaysian ... no offence ...

then we got to Selayang Mall to pamper our eyes for a while and got a few clothing here and there .. i got this 3/4 denim that i always wanted !! woohoo !! cool !! and a pair of sandals ... this time i hope i will wear it .. =D it's really pretty !!

i lurv my life now i'm so so so happy the way it is !! mwakx ! x0x0

i always wana be daddy's gurl

2008-07-29T19:22:00.005+08:00

today so the emo . .

this ppl lar cannot MTOB . . .

haih . .

why so chicken lady ?

haih . . this ppl are just making me emo emo emo . . .

then arr . .

i dono larh i dont seem to be talking to her . .

i dont feel like talking to her . .

i . . feel that i'm thinking too much . .

i am thinkin too much . .

it's the same feeling like how i felt twrds JM . .

m i mean ? i'm really mean. .

i dont know if they think the same way about me . .

life's really like a drama !!

a drama without a happy ending . .

i hope mine's not . .

when i die , i want all my friends to be really happy .

i want them to be so cuz i want them to know that i've

done my duty and paid my dues .

when i die . .

i unlocked myself from the punishment god destined .

and i've enjoyed every moment of my life with appreciation.

my family , my friends , i love ya'll .

please be happy for me cuz i got a chance to indulge in the luxurious life god gave me .

every minute every second counts !

appreciate what you have in front of your eyes and do not regret what you did and what you can't get .

when i die , i wana bring along the love everyone gave me.

i wana bring the love to my next life and spread the love too.

the people i will meet over there.

also , my piano and my dad's guitar.i wana play them the songs i've learnt and the guitar will be my guide cuz i need dad with me no matter what.

and the guitar too , will be brought to dad to play me the songs he's so good at

~* i miss dad *~

-daddy's little gurl -

:-) pretty happy day !

2008-07-27T20:08:00.004+08:00

olla ! on the past friday , io recieved two really special presents from two really special friends !
first :

choc from sam . . he bought it from the form sixers to show support . .haha !
then :

NIPS !!! from rishi !!! he's teasing me for looking at karan's nipps . . =.=
on the other hand :

the white choc on ur left .. i bought that for budz ! ahah ! it's a really cute white one .. the others were brown .. i don like them .. =D

so .. i spent the begining of my day looking for teacher's signature for the sijil berhenti sekolah . . then another period talkin with my friends at the school field .. m so glad to see them !! =D

i dont update my blog everyday larh ... so sad .. so now it's like topsy turvy .. =D !!

i miss budz !! oookay ! gotta go practice muh piano pieces now ! exam comin up in 17 hours ! woot woot !! grade 6 ! jangan main main !!

venue : impiana hotel

time : 1432

grade : 6

xoxo !! mwakx !

HUNGRY !!!

2008-07-26T01:32:00.008+08:00

m so really hungry right now !

went for perfection today . .

math and bm . .

i and sandy skipped math larh . . she wasnt feelin well . .so i accompanied her . . we talked abt so so many thingss !! so this is the start of a new bond ! ahah !

she's constantly having this gastric*butterflies in her stomach* thing . .

hope she'l be alright . .

well .. finally sir eswaran came back from his hunneymoon ! woohoo !! he's damn chuun !! woot woot !! ahah !!

we missed him alot though ! whuhuuhu ! =D

big smile !! q'n"n'p

((+++))

urrh .. then we waited for veronica yeng to have dinner with her . .

dammit she's goin back to the states already ! it's like so really fast ! it's ben two months !! but it felt like yesterday ! i thought it's only one month dwoh ... DANG ! ahah !!

i got this DANG thing from ashley and joanna .. ahah !!
get influenced so easily !!

this was years ago before she went to the states !

yup dats her !

havin baskin robbins . . with her BFF totomy bday !! woot woot !!m gonna miss u dear !

budzy told me that though . . and i agree with it ! ooohoo !! ahah !!

what larh . . i seriously needa contraol my emotions !!! the previous post posted just a couple of mins ago was so emotic and now this is like so jovial . .

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oookay .. .. m so addicted to writting this . . influenced by sis at first . . then now adays more peeps have been hanggin out arounf these places . .

now that it's more popular among us . . i too have the mood to write all about everything here already !!

but please ah . . . no personnal questionaires !!

ooohoo !!!

i still needa work on my revision !!! DANG* !!!

it's gettin so so really close now i can fall at the cliff anytime !!

oooo !!!!! ayte !! all for now !! will add when theres any other stuffs i wana blab about . .

oo yeah !! outta a sudden arh . . i'm so addicted to the NAME GAME !! oooyeah !!! it's a really cool song !!! aahaah !!!

25.08.08

we are different . . .

2008-07-26T00:55:00.007+08:00

i realise that , after all .. we are different .. though all this while everything seems so alike ! but .. how ?

i dont know . . this thing has been buggin me for a while now . .

what do i do ?? joby , help me !

what i'm saying is my friendship with the people i am with now . .

seriously . . i can feel the change !

a whole total upgrade of every mentality !

we are driftin apart . .

all of us going our path . .

a path destined !

some of'em are already seeing their future !

some of em are still stranded in the swamp of kiddyhood. .

=.=

plz . . dear lord . . i'm kinda confused in this thing too . . i feel like i so believe in buddhism . . but i'm like drifting away . .

i'm influenced by christianity . .

oooooooh !! what do i do ??? somebody !! anybody !! sis !!

why do these questionairs cross my small little brain ?? is't just me or do any of ya'll have the same prob ??

i'm always thinkin that this is just a bump i gotta go through . .
i feel that i'm bring so heydonish ! naive ! immmature !! well i am . .

sometimes a pervert ! sometimes a nobody ! and everythime a noob !

what can i do ??? plz . .

I NEED SOLUTIONS !!!

Momzies

2008-07-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

my momzie is a very busy lady .

she keeps the house in order and makes sure that there's food for my little tummy.

she always complains that i dont help her and stuffs and whatsoever ..

she's trying to make me realise something ..

now the years have passed .. and she's getting busier .. so i guess she got bored of grumbling and drilling a thing into my tiny brain that i just wont get it no matter how hard she tries ..

yesterday,she felt sick and went to the doctor for a medical cert.

so,she didn't go to work today larh ...

as you know .. when a person dont attend to work .. he/she will be free as a bord at home ...

so.. my point is ..

~*~What MomZies Do Best When They're Free ~*~

1.) follow you everywhere you go.

2.) go into your room and touch all your things and mess it up ... {supposingly its messy,but she tidies it up and changes the original posotion of your stuffs}

3.) pick every fault you do that she never ever commented in a million years ..

4.) comes into your room and asks you what are you doing up so "late" at 11.30p.m and all loads of questions and tells your sister to keep an eye on you and report to her if you're doing unneccesary stuffs.

5.) still asks you to take a bus home instead of picking you up from school

well this is life . it is sick . and how do you deal with it ??

~*~if you are using the computer and is online while your sister is using her laptop with wireless connection,IM her on MSN and ask her WTF is wrong with your momzie ..

what you should NEVER do !!!

~*~ argue with your momzie and ask her right to her face why is she doing this ..

cuz you'll only get more from her and you will never have a happy ending.

~*~THE END~*~

p/s : treasure your momzie ! she's THE only momzie you have .. she's doing everything for your best ! lurv momzie ! mwakx !

skewl ! i'm back !

2008-01-04T22:13:00.000+08:00

first day of school was pissifying cuz they separated the "DIAMOND" calss from the others ... so lonely there .. but still owhkay cuz with that i can spend less time hangin out with my BFF .. we can both have more time to read up and pull up our socks !!!

well ..it's realyy so many tonnes of work and SO LITTLE TIME !!!

anyway .. nothing is harder than giving up my sports sessions !!! darn i have too little time to enjoy my sports seasons .. haiya .. gotta drop part of it .. like .. i have no choice .. ='=

i hated my classroom so much at first ! cuz it's so crowdy and not a nice spot .. ppl by pass the calss al the time and it's totally distractfull !! and no privacy at all .. well til today .. i'm starting to get use to it and i find th good side of it already .. cuz it's realy cozy sitting in it and i have the best spot of seats in the calss and i'm right in the middle of the attention ! yup .. i'm sitting right in the middle of the class . my pall is JOANNA .. she's cool .. waayyy co0ol to sit with .. cuz we don talk taht much and we dont keep ourselves private at all !it's just realy great being in this class !!

well today,the second day of school .. four of my classnates GOT their way trough the hustle and bustle .. they were allowed to go back to their usual class .. thats RUBY .. they wanted it so much i dont know for what reason they dont like my class .. =/ and there's this boy .. my fellow friend too .. his application was not aprooved .. so he got so angry and stressed up .. out of no time he grabbed his paper and pen and wrote another letter to our DEAR headmistress Mdm. Ho Chee Lean ... Y Y Y ??? whats wrong with my class ??

sigh .. nevermind .. as long as they're happy .. i will be too .. => all smiles for FORM 5 2008 !!

CHEERZ !!!!

life is a process .

2007-11-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

a process wher u'l undergo the good and the bad.many teens like me now think.why do we have to do al the home work and all the * examz ..

its the learning process we have to undergo..this is life..we are born here to live like this.

why din we thought of these questions when we were young ?? it's cuz when we reach a certain age .. these things comes directly into our complez mind without warning..

thus . . may thy's mind think wisely n don step into the wrong pool . . stay calm and think not twice . . but many many times b4 thy make any decision o..

don let the tickle in ur brain ruin ur life !!

~*~

to all peeps like me out there !

PEACE

make life worth it !!

2007-11-15T00:59:00.000+08:00

~* make someone outta u ! not make u outta sumone *~

... MARK THIS ...

Wo0ow...

2007-11-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

i had a chat wit my former classmate just now.

he totally blastd ma head out !

i salute him as the only species of guy left on mother earth !

totally respect him.

i was like so controllin myself when talkin to him..

a single word damn was a total issue

i contaminated myself by allowing myself into the free world .

too much influence .. but too little self control and disciplin !

mwahaha ! it's time for m to come back to myself ..

be a gud gurl .. and don create havoc ! haahaa !

~*~

naah .. just another show off ..

memories will ..

2007-11-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

NEVER BE REPLACED

apPrEeEc!aTteEe...

2007-10-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

as i know..a human mind always wants for more.we do not look what we have infront of us but we want things infront of us n noamally cant wapit till it gets in hand.

orRr...

is't just me ? ? ?

just like exam..i know i hv to study to get ma a1s..but i wil never get my butt up n pull up my socks..always'l wait till da thirteenth hour..baru nak regret..

olahraga..finish da race n lost baru nak practice..

taekwondo..watching a mate i once win fight for malaysia...

wel..wats done is done..wat i shud do now is to put down the past n strive for the future..

too many mistakes !!

uhHhHhH.....

too much mEm0r!eSzZ...

too much PAIN ....

by : gnitiuh ~*~ ting ~*~

~Fr0zEn !n TiM3~

2007-10-10T15:06:00.000+08:00

~*~

frozen in me

untold

unwritten

unforgotten

~*~

Snatch Thief !!!

2007-09-08T17:01:00.001+08:00

Snatch casses are known globally and til today it has been erupting like the active volcanoes...

Last wednesday ! i and Yimin were to attend our taekwondo referee practice at TAMAN BERSATU's taekwondo gym..

so..we went to Rawang wit mom and we took a bus there juz to delay some time..by da time we reach there..it's around 7:50 pm..since dat it's early and our senior haven't arrive to open da door for us..i decided to go to da shop nearby to get Galaxie for avril's poster..

after about 5 minutes or so..we're done..hence..we walked back to da gym..

yet..our seniors haven't arrive...so yimin took her nokia 5300 to call them to come earlier..we were waitin in front of da bright lit Dobi shop just below our gym upstairs..

two bastards of guys came there wit their bike..one of them came down and went to da dobi pretending to take his laundry... he came out saying sumthing he couldn;t get the laundry and da next thing i know is he's snatching Yimin's H/P !!! *** i was stunned and din know wat to do ! it was so totally so dramatic and wat i remember to do is to hold yimin and shout ! and the next thing i remember..dat guy got away wit Yimin's H/P...

wat ever happened da day was juz so quick and it really tot me a GREAT lesson and now i really feel ther persence of danger everywhere ! before this i'l b like..:"owhkay i must becarefull.."

NOW !! it's :"watch out for danger ! watch out for danger ! "...

dat experience was just... a red alarm for da two of us ! and for da others too ! musn't think dat a place familiar to u wil be safe...always take precautions and always stay at places wit crowd even if it's for a few minutes ! wat happened to me and Yimin was within minutes dats why !

SUKSESS VII

2007-09-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

SUKSESS VII.. my second SUKSESS tournament..it was from 27.07.2007 - 29.07.2007

din hv time to write abt it back then..

it wasn't as great as da previous one..tis year no fun at all.. stadium empty..only those who r participating r in da stadium..and all da officers and coaches larh..very very boring..n training session lagi larh teruk...only 3 to 4 person comes for training and it's like so totally out of order..

during da meet..we actually stayed at da room above a badminton court..da rooms weren't dat bad larh..but isn't it funy?nvm..as long as v don hv to stay at PAK TAM's...which i doubt wil b better..

my friend from da next class yin yie played for da badminton team..was kinda cool we stayed together dat time..first time like this.. ;-) was fun hangin out wit her.. da badminton guys were cute !not extremely larh..but at least i get to pamper my eyes wit them throughout da three days...haha! giggle

First !..introducing...da FAMILY da purple T is da shirt we got..

da ladie in green is our manager/coach

da rest r ma fellas..

tis year they din give running vests..instead..they gave one similar to it..some sorta t-shirt .. wit thights..no track top..only track bottom..and our t-shirt was PURPLE !! WTH ?? gombak was nvr purple... =/ looks one kind only lar..yeer..

my first event was da 4x100m..which we lost to da three other districts..petaling,hulu langat and klang..

run ! HT run ! 4x100m

afta da run...tis after gettin up from da collapse. :)

Fun part was to share my days wit ma fella pals!

Sarah da hawty ! she won silver for da ladies HeptathlonAaron..gold medalist men's Decathlon

Shanis and Grace..Shanis won gold for long jump silver for hurdles and high jump..her dad was ex olympian for hurdles too !

Shanis and Grace...two of'em whom i spend most of my time wit..we go for breakfast..luch and dinner together ! it's realli fun hangin out wit tis two sisters!they r juz so nice and of corse they r so experienced in atheletics u can ask them abt anything..it's juz that sumtimes it's hard to explain sumthing then they cant answer ur question.. ;-) lurv them!They r two goreous atheletics babes!and they had really taken good care of me since we know each other ! muackxXx!

ATTACK !!! Powder fight..

Dat's Harpreet and Shanggari attacking Shanis..one of their traditions to do sumthin to da others on da last nite of our tournament..last year was colgate..by Kusha and Amy..da two big bosses of da ladies...

the teacher was attacked too !

Asalan did this to Grace..

THREE OF US snapping pics after da fight ..

Us..after the meet finished...

well...i din win any medal AGAIN...cuz of lack of training .. haha !nvm..hope i can stil join the next SUKSESS in two years time...by then i'l fight for the Heptathlon and won let any one steal my place for it anymore ! = P this year i din get to participate in Heptathlon for sum reasons..hate it ! won let it happen again !

mynie mo

Julie's Blog

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I'm so excited !!

Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it

It's a learning process

Love

Don't be like me

Pretty bored lately

never been so stressed

one week

why do I study ?

The Way I Like It

Grown up

the great mind

?

Him

trouble trouble trouble

my new toy

head strong

reposting again

SUNDAY, MARCH 21, 2010

She looks like my small sis...

immune

what would you do ?

Sometimes

orientation camp

a perfect morning to start a day

another day of head ache

officially DONE !

me

reason

seriously

days like that

:(

am i ?

cant take it anymore .. ~~ BLuUEH ..

defensive

gazed

poo !

missy morning

new record !

new record !

a book

seriously ?

what to do ?

music

when i grow up.

stop Oit.

i needa keep in touch

what a life .. (feeling pinkish today) ~wonder what it means~

home alone

Home alone

BUT THE AGAINBy MARY SCHNEIDER

live it like the rainbow !

listen to yourself .

what do you want ???

you will never know...

searching for myself

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

murder

so long . . .

i always wana be daddy's gurl

:-) pretty happy day !

HUNGRY !!!

we are different . . .

Momzies

skewl ! i'm back !

life is a process .

make life worth it !!

Wo0ow...

memories will ..

apPrEeEc!aTteEe...

~*Fr0zEn !n TiM3*~

Snatch Thief !!!

SUKSESS VII

BUT THE AGAIN
By MARY SCHNEIDER

~Fr0zEn !n TiM3~